BiggieStylin Evil Genius. Love it/Hate it.

not sure… just ugh.

Well, I'm not really sure what to write here right now. I just feel so ugh about myself. I'm so tired of feeling lazy and lethargic. Once again, I've let myself slip from doing what I should be doing. I've stopped jogging, I've stopped lifting weights, I've stopped trying. It just reminds me of how weak I am, and how easily I can fail if I let myself. I'm tired of it. I want to be a better person, for myself, and for everyone close to me. Its just so frustrating to be doing so good for a while, then just quitting completely. I hate it!

So, really this blog post isn't because I want you to feel sorry for me, its because I need to voice how I feel, and because I want to make a promise to everyone. I promise I'm going to start again, and I'm going to stick with it, no matter how much I hate it or don't want to do it. What I really need is accountability. I suck at holding myself accountable, and I know it. I need people to push me, and hold me totally accountable for what I'm promising right now. I've already started tonight and I feel great. I'm working on this post between weight lifting and running. I'm going to at least do it every other day until my body gets used to it again.

Anyway, I just wanted to vent my frustration with myself and to be able to hold myself accountable by looking at this post. All I have to say to myself is... JUST DO IT!